it's past 3AM and obviously i'm still awake. just got home after hanging out with friends, we dined at Rockwell then headed to 6750 Starbucks to chit chat. 'twas a great night i'd say though i only had about 3 hours of sleep. yatpu ulit tsk tsk. would you believe, i set my celphone alarm to 5PM pero hindi ako nagising waaaahh. next thing i know i woke up at 7PM eh we were supposed to meet at 7PM din hehe. dang, it has always been and i think will be my problem. mantika kasi ako kung matulog *kamot ulo*. pag meh apoy sa tabi ko, sunog na yung kalahati siguro ng katawan ko bago pa ako magising.. anyway, i feel a bit sentimental when i got home. eh pano naabutan ko yung isang teleserye (re-run i think since it's already past midnight) sa channel 2 and i decided to watch it because Sports Unlimited comes right after pa. mind you, i don't really watch these shows pero crush ko kasi ang chinita na bidang babae, so how can i resist? hehe. the 15-minute part i saw somehow moved me. starting from the part wherein the chinita girl cried running away from his love interest, eh mantakin mo ba namang tumawid sa isang busy street so talagang mababangga ka inday. eh bus pa yun, so siguradong tepok diba? she was survived by her family and, of course, a lot of friends who were all at her funeral. bigla ko na-miss si ermats =(.. but i was moved by the scene when the guy knelt and prayed at the church. that he was contrite about not doing everything for the girl when she was still alive, that he started asking God to bring back time (tingin ko yun ang sabi niya di ko na narinig hehe). simple at cliche ang scene diba but because i was exactly in his place before, though my love interest did not die of a car accident, i felt his pain. ouch i need a valium!! i let our relationship slip away, only realizing when it was already gone. how stupid was i to let that someone i was hoping to be with my whole life go. my god, what happened to me?!? she's gone and it's all over and i should have let go by now. i know i did pero i take it hard on myself pa rin..
oh well, so much for that. why am i like this? am i gonna die soon? oh Lord wag naman po sana please please! or is this just a sign of getting older and get to face real life? basta, this year i would want to concern myself with making life better. and doing whatever i can for everybody. okay, okay, not for everyone, just for loved ones and friends lang muna :)
anyway, trip ko mga striped long sleeves lately and i saw one in Esprit (Power Plant Mall) which i fell in love with the moment na nakita ko siya. i'm planning to buy it tomorrow. why not kanina? kasi baka mamaya infatuation lang hahaha. pampalubag loob lang hehe ;p.
o, wala nang palabas sa TV. mag-a-alas kwatro na pala hehe. meme na ;p.
