happy new year everyone!

i am personally grateful i have survived 2006 :) though it was rough, 'twas still good. i'm hoping to be see a better me this new year.. sana *cross fingers* sana *cross fingers* :D

motto for 2007: livestrong!



God bless us all!

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as to why am i ksp lately eh hindi ko rin alam :-S

'tis the season of love

i am equally guilty among those who treated Christmas as one of those occasions that just must pass and be celebrated. i would understand, though still not an excuse for them, that some hardly felt it at all due to poverty, hunger and strife. i've realized that my lame reason of being too much occupied with work and family/personal matters had simply led me to not appreciate the deep meaning of why we celebrate Christmas in the first place. and that is the miraculous birth of Jesus Christ into this world, through Mary, which eventually led to his crucifixion for the forgiveness of mankind's sins. John 3:16 simply puts God's reason, "...that God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever believes on Him should not perish but have eternal life."

maybe too many traditions and the repeated celebration of Christmas years and years after Jesus' birth have somewhat blurred the meaning of it all. but i think every year is a high time for us to return to the basics. LOVE is the reason why we have Christmas so it leaves us no reason to not love one another in return. we should cease complaining of what we don't have, let's start counting our blessings instead.. Merry Christmas everyone! :D

eins, zwei, drei

3 days before Christmas but i honestly am not into it yet. but at least i had reconciled with some of the people i wasn't in good terms with this year :) makes you feel lighter inside. isa na lang ata ang natitira hehe.. haven't gone to malls or tiangge to buy gifts for my family and friends. next week na rin lang siguro pag may sweldo na ulit. buti na lang money doesn't really matter when you try to make people happy. spending time with them nga lang would mean a lot..

by next week, i'd like to have a reflection of my life in 2006 which i usually do come this time of the year. sana mai-post ko din dito sa blog ko. but for now, i should get ready..

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please promise you won't fall in love with me...

one of those days..

from what i remember throughout the year there were very few times i got sick or at least stayed home because i'm not feeling well. i am living with my ate at bunso namin sa magkakapatid and yes, we tend to everyone's needs (i support our family financially, ate ko naman ang cook and si Samuel, siya ang nakikinig lang ng music araw araw hehe) but there are certain times you wish you can just relax and be pampered by people around you. recently, after the accident i stayed home for more than a week and boy, bukod sa na-bore ako because i barely could use the keyboard with my sore left hand eh nag self-pity lang ata ako most of the time. it's one of my weaknesses i guess, which apparently i need to overcome. it's those times you wish someone takes care of you. doesn't matter who that is as long as may nag-aalaga. two people i miss, my nanay who i remember cooks for me and attends to my needs kahit may lagnat lang ako. and of course my girlfriend beside me (oh when can i get over you, you know who you are)...

and today i feel so sick :( where are they? nanay is not around though i don't wish for her to be here at this moment hehe ;p God bless her soul! oh well, i guess i just have to stop feeling sorry for myself. itulog ko na nga lang toh and i have a wedding to attend to tomorrow morning. haaaayyy..

random thoughts

if only i could write songs then i would already have thousands today. moods, feelings, stereotypes. naku madami ako niyan...

being a team leader poses a challenge not just on resolving technical issues but more so on the part wherein you have to be fair with everyone. two things i make sure: first, that no one feels any favoritism from my part and second, that a relationship established would not just be on professional terms but something that goes beyond workplaces. don't get me wrong, i mean to be friends/barkada with everybody at least.

after almost seven years with my current employer, i've established different kinds of friendships with different kinds of people. some short-lived (obviously short stint lang sila sa company eh), some purely business, some colorful (nakagalit, nakabati, nakatampuhan, nakabati ulit hehe), others profound (goes beyond mabo-boteng usapan and the billiard table, we became part of each others' lives. naging ninong na nga ako ng mga anak nila eh), and still others i'd say would last a lifetime (there's my BFFs Rona and Brian. ay corny!.. likewise with the other 11 who figured out in a vehicular accident recently and together we survived).

and for almost seven years, i have seen friends come and go. oh well, that's life and the only constant thing we have is change. every day we encounter changes which could affect us directly and thus drag us a bit into either the bright or dull side of life, or indirectly which still ripples through our emotions.. for this year alone, four of my team members left and i'm proud to admit that i am affected each time. why? simply because we have made that connection, that bond, which when you not see them as often as before seems to bring void within. dang, i am easily attached to people and i know in a similar manner this puts me in a more difficult position to leave..

oh well, life goes on. so long friends and when we cross paths again in the not so distant future let's pause for a moment and reminisce of those good times. chao!

or maybe i'm still shaken up with the recent accident i've been through. i think i need to see a psychiatrist...